For as long as I can remember, I’ve had bouts of depression like clockwork. It’s something that made me very susceptible to suicide at an early age. Luckily, I always found ways to creatively talk myself out of it until the feeling passed. I also suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and creep up on my at a moment’s notice. Breathing techniques have been extremely helpful in managing them.

For most of my life, I never cared about traveling. I was happy at home with my own stuff. My previous job change that, sending me across the country on video shoots. My current Job sent me to London to shoot a training shoot, which marked my first trip outside of the United States (excluding Mexico).

People look at me weird when I say I hate driving. I mean I REALLY hate driving! My father regifted me my first car in high school and the moment I tried to drive it out of his driveway, the rusted axel snapped in two. After that, I never gave a crap about getting behind he wheel. I’d rather spend a fortune on taxis, buses and Ubers, than own a car.

I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes over a decade ago. A lifetime of bad eating and neglecting my health caught up with me. By the grace of all that is Holy, I met and married an incredible woman who immediately made me go cold turkey with fast food and researched tirelessly on healthy foods I’d love to eat. For a while after that I was pretty health but got lazy once again and let my health slide. Currently, I’m working on changing my daily habits to get myself back on course.

One of those unknown things that creatives won’t tell you, is that they fear that day when the world finds out you’re a talentless hack and everything you’ve ever done was just ‘smoke and mirrors’ or plagiarized from more talented people. It sounds like a bad thing, but it’s one of those things that keeps us striving to get better.